Peicing hurts like hell and is harder than...

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Hi Cat03, Thanks for posting. I don't post nearly as often as I used to, and I get very few responses. I treasure the posts and advice I do get, but sometimes feel I'm posting for myself anymore - just journaling, and hoping sometimes that someone like yourself will respond.

I'm packing the truck for the move. I've read on these boards of others packing their spouse for separation. God, it's hard. I'm ding well though - keeping a smile on my face and being happy for her, and for us. But I wish she knew how hard it was for me, but I can't tell her that.

We had gone to some MC. It was generally good. The C thought we were over the hump and would make it. He also thought I would be moving with my W, and that she wanted me to go. I'm not going with her, and she wouldn't stop me from joining her, but really wants to try this on her own, away from me. I'd like to go back to MC, to see if I'm making a mistake, if I'm doing the right things, if there is some insight we are missing. I don't think she would be interested, but I haven't asked.

She does accept an occasiional hug, and even initiates one, occassionally. She might accept me holding her hand. It's hard to tell.

The best and hardest advice through this whole ordeal has been patience. I think that's what you are telling me too. Thanks for the support.

I've read some of your posts. Are you one of those that made it, or are making it? you've busted your divorce? I hope so. Knowing real examples of people that have made it really helps (like Grasshopper, and Toughlover, although I really miss them).

I don't know how being 4 states, 15 hours, apart can help us rebuild our marriage, but I also feel she has to take this job and that means moving.

Rebuilding, making a new R ... sure wish there was a road map, milestones, or something. I haven't dated in over 23 yeasr, but I think dating a stranger would be easier than this.

Fun. thanks.