I think it is normal to have those feelings with the d looming. It probably feels like being right at the beginning of this whole thing. Let those feelings wash over you. Take the time you need to grieve your m. It will help you move on to the next step. Just keep moving forward. Take it one day at a time. Take all the time you need. Work through all those feelings no matter how painful. It is time to heal so those old wounds do not keep resurfacing. You decide when you are ready.
