BIG TUNA still here

[big_tuna]

wes...she has expressed remorse but is trying hard to move on and away despite it....i am trying my best to hold it together and move on myself but it is so hard when you love someone for so long and dont understand(to this day) why she did this to our family....the mixed signals are hard..i barely spoke to her the last 3 days as i have the kids....we still kiss and hug everytime we see each other and as recently as last week she said "i still love you you know"...that what makes it hard...as many have said here i think she keeps me just close enough in case this new life isnt what she(or her new friends told her) it would be.....keeps me in perpetual agony however as i still fantasize about her return and continue to romanticize(sp?) the
past....doesnt seem fair does it?.....i pray for you, me and every other person in this sitch....when i do finally move on i'll let you all know.....BIG TUNA- 38 days post-D....