I can't knock the headache. It may have something to do with my anger toward my boss. He comes prancing in here at 2:00 with his lunch and starts spewing off things that have to be done. Ummmm, get your a$$ in here sooner and it will get done.
I have actually been working today (a first for everything) and don't have time for his petty crap. He is a member on a committee and is working on a contract for a general manager for a golf course and expects me to type all this crap up. I hate it. Boy is he in for a rude awakening when I walk in here and give my two weeks notice. I can't wait for that day. I will be throwing one heck of a party and all of you are invited.
Time to go get the kids and run some work related errands. I will be back around 4:00 or so.
I do not even really think it is that. I think it is more tucking the memories away in a place that is even deeper.
We all did something to get ourselves in this sitch but in the same sense we tried to correct those and make ourselves into better people in hopes that it will either A) Show our x's that it can work and let them make a choice to come back or not. or B) Help us create a life that we are happy with within ourselves.
If we can not continue on happy with in ourselves there is no way that we could ever share OUR happiness with anyone else.
Once we are truly happy and accept what has happen then we can move on and it just does not hurt anymore. I look at it as a great life expirence and I have no regrets about ever marrying my STBX it just did not work out. We have to go our own ways for a while.....Who in the hell knows what is going to happen so why sit an dwell over the past. Leave it there and look at what we currently have and make the best out of it.
All I can say is tht I tried and I feel I can honestly look into my kids eyes when they get older and tell them that I tried to do the right things to save our family/Our Marriage but it just wa not meant to be at that point in time.
O.K. Enough rambling about this....
Hell I do not even make any sense to myself sometimes. I think I need a break.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
