H is still going to C but it is strictly for his PTSD. In the beginning I mentioned going but he said no...he has told me a lot but does not want me to know everything so I was fine with that. H was on some temporary meds, they were really strong and are only for severe anxiety bouts. He was on the meds (Lorazepam, I think is what it was) for about 2 weeks and slept well, had no anxiety attacks and didn't have nightmares.
Part of me feels it is inevitable that I will move back home but when it comes down to it...if I am this terrified about it and this is ALL that I have wanted since Nov., I cannot imagine his anxiety over it. My greatest worry is pushing us back because I feel we have come so far, but I feel it has only been really great for a month or so.
Usually he throws in a snippit about the future that is us oriented. I will wait for that and try to transition into a lease expiration talk. I have had a couple of chances but chickened out. Like the other day he said something about "the next place we rent." We were on the phone so I didn't say anything but that was a good place to say..."speaking of renting our next place, my lease is coming up and I was wondering if you wanted to start looking at houses to rent like you had mentioned." Something like that...keep me in your thoughts, I may not do it tonight (we are going to the movies) but I am shooting for end of June/ beginning of July.
