I know it's so very hard. H has said and done some very low things to me as well. I've done the fighting back and I know that it hurt our sitch even more. I'm finding it very hard to keep my mouth shut on issues. He's told me that he's sick of my accusing him at every turn. Even though I know I'm making matters worse I can't seem to help myself. I'm hoping once we're in the same place again I can maybe feel alittle better about things and keep the mouth shut and actually do some positive things. Just keep your head up and make yourself happy. Once I move I plan on doing alot more for myself than I have been doing.