Hi Amy

Curious? Why the rant?

I remember when I found this board....in Oct 05, I was devastated. I perhaps may have thot that with a little bit of knowledge I stumbled around and found here, and the super fast trip to B&N to get the DB Book....that I could bring him home ASAP I guess, in the beginning we are all hoping that there is a miracle cure. I takes awhile to realize just how deep this goes.

I also ate crap,listened to his venting, I have cried, I have swallowed my pride AND eventually, I stood up for myself.

But yet, after 20 long months I still find myself searching and reading....gaining knowledge. I see my H pop his head out occasionally, but then it pops back in just as fast. So I read trying to find an answer to what made it pop back in so quickly?

Every single damn time I see a movement towards my ultimate goal...an outsider steps in. They throw words at him, filling his mind with negatives.....when I speak to him, I TRY and fill it with positives. But how can one compete if they are not given the chance? How can one compete with a g/f who apparently is accepted into the family fold? He's hispanic.....and to be cast out of a family means NO ONE speaks to you. NO ONE! I'm so damn proub of BND's husband I could just SPIT! I pray that mine would wake up and see......hell, I want nevermind.

I dunno Amy....I'm trying to understand what you mean by not being a doormat and yet dying to self. How many deaths do we die before we find our balance?

I'm still standing....he knowes this. I have not given up. He knowes that. I am not leaving the state of FL even tho I have NO ONE here cept my adult son. A smart person would move back towards their family where housing is more economical. I'm choosing to stay here. Why? Because I hope oneday to get the chance.......thats it, just a chance.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting this.. \:\) But I'm going to assume that it's cuz I've been up since 5am trying to find my way to that unique place! And damnit!, where is it??

Sorry to hijack....but I had a good excuse

Smooches Amy

Jeanette

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