Upside Down,,, thanks! No it does not make sense,, that is what is killing me. Also I agree that he could tell me dont get ivolved but he went to the extreme,, he did say dont get invovled, he also told me I am getting older by the minute and I acted like a WH*RE just like she is,, and he is so embarrassed ( sp?) that I would do such a thing. That he is just trying to relax and have fun before he starts working tomorrow and oh thats right you wouldn't know about that you dont work!!!!! I give you everything and you ruined it all,,,^&&** you several times and more cruelty also.
Then when I called back like and idiot,, oh yeah he called me that and a STUPID B*TCH too,,,, beforehand... he said " what do you want? I told you I do not care what part of this dont you get?"
I said where is the man I was talking to this morning? Oh yeah and then he proceeded to tell me to go ahead and have relations... not in those words but the vulgar ones ... with whoever I wanted cause he was done with me.
he had been drinking for most of the weekend I AND AL LDAY TODAY!!! and I am sad about this whole thing... I dunno who he is or what happened. This is actually a pattern, when I got up now I realized. Every time things get real good and comfortable ,, he turns into this ogre and turns on me.
He said some very hurtful things..
and this morning he just joked and asked if I was sure I wasn't pregnant cause he is having cravings for certain foods. I feel so disappointed. I feel so sad,, LIKE I dont deserve this. Oh yes and he also said ... I was the one who had to prove myself not him.... and that it is always all about me,
.... and by the way he went to a bar next door with this girls boyfriend and they were having the bartenders supposedly say oh XXXX and oh XXXX I love you and that one of them was my H girl.... to make her furiuos! So now he is mad at me ..RICH!!
I need to grow up cause he said so and I am getting older by the minute ( i look ten years younger BTW, not my opinion, I hear it alot) so he feels sorry for me!
BUT had I been doing this just to get a laugh.... and I am the immature one?
This is far too much.. now that I got up and cant sleep I am actually angry at him for treating me this way.. I still feel ugly, and sad etc,etc,etc. BUT I am also very angry that he did this and wants to throw this away. I just dont get it and he told me to sell all the stuff he bought me too that I am a spoiled &&**(). He bought me a coach purse and sunglasses last year.. the purse he sent me $ for pre bomb cause I had lost 21 lbs,, his choice I never asked.
... and the glasses I did ask for cause they were half off $80. He throws these things at me everytime he gets angry. But yet he will blow $200 on one nite out drinking???? HURTS ........................all I can say is boy that is a HUGE slap in the face. and yeah I should not have gotten involved but for him to treat me this way is just.. there are no words that come to mind.
I stay at home, I never go out. I help him run a crew that he has here.. I keep him up to date on the weather, I call and order materials for him and I also give him directions to job sites I even order food for him and the crew over the phone.. and I do it with love b/c I love him even when he gets angry but this is too much too hurtful!
OH YEAH and just a few days ago the pizza took forever and when I called back from the landline and had the manager on my cell and she wanted to know if the pizza had already gotten there he blew up and then called back to apologize................ uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh! I HELP HIM AS MUCH AS I CAN AND HE SAYS I DO NOTHING AND HE BUYS ME EVEYTHING!!!! OOOOOOUUUUCH!
I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND MY KIDS THIS IS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TOO HANDLE AFTER HOW GOOD THIS WAS GOING... at least GOD loves me! GOD BLESS....
