I just got in the house and its almost 11 but I had to write a little to you. My H is acting very strange these last 3 days. He hasn't hardly called. Today I called this morning to tell him how the shipping had gone. He is very distant. I had to talk to him this afternoon and he was real distant. I ask is something was wrong and that he was distant he said he was just driving. I almost wonder if someone was there. He didn't answer a couple of times when I had to get a hold of him. No text messages or anything. I finally got a hold of him tonight and then he was nicer and listened to all the messages I had for him and the decisions that I had made for this week. I have no clue why he is being so strange. He has been calling and being very positive and supportive and listening to postive thinking tapes as he drives on his job. Then to just draw back this weekend. His mom couldn't figure it out. She told me just to keep going and he will call when he wants to give me some orders. She did make me feel good. I live about 1/4 of a mile away from them and do alot for them. She told me I was to stay here as long as I wanted for ever if I wanted, that my FIL and her would really miss me that I bring joy to there lives. At least I do someone.
It has been a stressful day today. and a long few days.
It is really funny. It seems that sometimes when I have a lot of work to do, I have a big crew of mostly men that have worked for us and helped me a lot for years. They all come and help me and sometimes I think it bums him out because they used to come help him but they kinda quit because he would get so mad at the kids and I that they didn't like it so they wouldn't help him as much. But they will come help me. At times I think he wishes I would find someone so he could use that as an excuse to move on. He told me once if he divorced me he would have to move because everyone would be so mad at him especially if it was over the OW. He always teases me sarcastically (spelling) that some guy is going to want to run off with me because I am doing the business by myself. What do you think? Why would he say things like that?
I do have to tell you. It made me feel good the other day I had a 31 year old guy that I have known for ever make a pass at me. It made a 48 year old feel good. I was kinda shocked my self. That would show him!!!He was big and strong and cute...That would show him...Just kidding I wouldn't do that....It might have been tempting but I stayed strong....It just surprised me....I didn't tell any one but giggled to my self.
You never know what life is going to throw at you. Well guys I hope things are going well today for you. Thanks for listening to me.
Matilda let me know when you get your new thread. Hope things are going OK...HUGS YoYO, Did you get your daughter moved? Hope you are doing OK too MOre HUGS...It just feels good to know someone cares... I just keep thinking this to shall pass...but its sure moving slow and not passing like we all want.....Hang in there guys..Have a good day tomorrow. Its time to go to sleep....
