Just getting started peicing it back together 2

[jersting]

I think that I must have jumped in this forum too soon. I think now it is time to find a different forum. I need one that has more to do with dealing with divorce instead of piecing. I guess when she came back to me it was just for the kids and not her. We are closing tomorrow on a new house for her and the kids and I think the divorce is just around the corner. I feel so much heart ache that I just want to get over her but I just can't seem to get her out of my heart even though my mind wants to. I am pretty sure she is having an affair with someone and I started to dig on that a little and just made me feel worse so now I just let my mind play the scenarios through and it makes me nuts. I thought that maybe if I could get proof that she is with someone else it would help me to get her out of my heart but I don't think that is going to work either. One question I have is this... If God put us together why are we going apart and if God does want us apart why won't he take her out of my heart and make this easier on me?