I still pray for my XW. I pray that she will one day be "OK" for her sake as well as my boys...... But especially my boys. Anyone who has followed my sitch(or whatever) knows that I have been through hell, sometimes self inflicted. The one thing that I know for sure is that all the while I "stood" it helped me. I had the most faith, I was the most positive(sometimes). I now know that my faith should have been that when I let go to and give it to God that he would bring me whats best for me. My life would be what he has planned, I would be the man that he wanted me to be. Are XW and I ever going to be together again? Hell I don't know. Saying no would be as silly as saying yes. But anytime you say I am ready to "quit" you need to rub your legs and stand taller for your M. I didn't quit. When I let go I started living outside the realm that I would be her H again. I became just me. It wasn't until I was ready, I had to learn that giving my life to God, instead of giving my M to God was what had to be done. And now....she's engaged, going to get married next year and needs to drive home that point pretty regularly. Just got an email about the subject today as a matter of fact, asking what I was going to do with my schedule when she goes on vacation next year......Drive it home Kar:) It's just the thing that I would have done to get her attention, when I wasn't "over" her or the M. My point is, when you feel that you have had enough and you say you want to "quit" or "move on", you need to ask yourself is that what you are really doing. Is your H or W ever going to be gone? No they are not, you can't quit or move on. They are always going to be there. When you decide that you quit, the only thing you can do is stand. Because you aren't better yet? Your decisions are still focused on your spouce.....you need to start living for you before you can start living.
hmmmmm, I'm tired as hell so I hope this makes some sense, if not....oh well it won't be my first babbel post(at least it ain't on my thread;))
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
