NikkiB #16

[NikB]

ST thanks for the reply.

On the fish - yeah, I think he probably wasn't gonna make it anyway. I know not to get too attached to them, that's for sure. My bro had fish growing up and I remember MANY a fish funeral - I think he was about 16 before he stopped getting so attached (before that we had burials, poems, the whole works for every fish!).

On the rest - haha thank you for the laugh with the brick comment!! I agree that it probably came across as attacking even though that wasn't the intent.

I had faith that it WOULD end and I was not ever going to blow up about it.

I think I did better with the "blowing up" part in that the convo was pretty calm. I need to work on the first part, though. I guess I'd feel more confident that it will end if H was telling me something like that, as opposed to the "just a friend" BS. But I'm not going to get that right now.

Now that you talked about it again, I think you need to really refrain from doing it for a while. Otherwise he's going to just feel constrained and pressured and think, ugh she's never going to be happy kind of attitude.

Totally agreed here. I do think I need to work on a reply to the "just a friend" in case H brings it up again, which he may, but otherwise I plan not to for a long time. What's weird is when I see you say it here, about kick him out or something, I think to myself "No way, everything's going way too well!" And a month even sounds too short - as in I'd be happy if it's "only" a month but OK with allowing more time if it's needed. I'm feeling a little better about "owning" that choice now though, as Oldtimer put it.

I just need to go back to being patient and giving him time to do the right thing. And I definitely gotta get back to my happy, GAL'ing, PMA self NOW - no question there.