Remember, DR says they'll keep changing the time line.
YOU should take the baby steps. Start by going dark one day... then two, three, a week? With me, when I start getting anxious, I know if I can hold out, then I know I'll be over whatever it is the next day. Nights are pretty much the worst.
So we had our session with C. She asked if I was on drugs she didn't know about, because I'm doing so well. I could NOT tell her about this site and DR cuz I didn't want HIM to know... LOL!! We (C and I) have talked before about how when I first found out about the A, I was desperate and I hadn't been like that in a long time. I told C today, that apparently over the past 2 years, I have been desperate, just not as outwardly. C didn't say much, but revisited it closer to the end of the session and agreed that I really didn't seem desperate now. That there was a different air about me. I told her all the GAL stuff.
C asked him a couple of times something about what he wants now from our relationship. He was VERY vague!!! VERY vague... not even answering the question... just pretty much saying to keep doing what I'm doing. GAL basically. We talked about how I didn't know how things were going and our last conversation about R was over a week ago. HE mentioned how we haven't had date night because the priority is on the kids (mainly 7yo) right now and we will need to work that in somehow. Now I told you, I would not bring it up any more and I still won't.
I told her how proud I was for fixing the toilet myself. Seem like she had done it before so wasn't as impressed with me as I was.
We talked about the difference between needing him and wanting him (JUST like ImLin, I think) said!! I could tell that he was happy with the 180s but still a little pissed that it's taken this long. Oh well. Nothing I can do now to change that, right? As we once again come back around to your "dealing with remorse" title!!
We talked about the difference of him working late because of these layoffs opposed to working late to stay away. We talked about me not wearing my ring, me thinking he's lying about his.
I don't know... I think I'm on one of my highs. Do you ever feel bi-polar or manic depressive because of the extreme highs and lows. I know myself enough to know that I will question how I'm feeling, brace myself and things will soon go to pot again. Guess I'll try a 180 there.
I gotta go do a "big" shopping. *sigh* We used to go shopping together... for YEARS and he hated it. WTHeck is with waiting until things fall apart to talk about these things? Men! I think I'll pick up some new pink nail polish for my toes.
I'll be back later to check to see how your day has been!!
I could NOT tell her about this site and DR cuz I didn't want HIM to know... LOL!! We (C and I) have talked before about how when I first found out about the A, I was desperate and I hadn't been like that in a long time. I told C today, that apparently over the past 2 years, I have been desperate, just not as outwardly. C didn't say much, but revisited it closer to the end of the session and agreed that I really didn't seem desperate now. That there was a different air about me. I told her all the GAL stuff.
