OK, that wasn't so bad. Let's do that some more... it's bound to keep getting easier as I keep doing it. And I'm planning to start something tonight that tests my persistance at a single task and my selling ability. I can't wait to pass that test with flying colors. (See how much more exciting that is than "I hope I don't fail yet another test"?)

I did get a glimpse of the promised land, attitude-wise, a month or two ago. Twice in one week, female total strangers, and fairly attractive ones at that, approached me to speak to me out of the blue. I started a conversation with another without much "excuse", and now she comes to me to chat a bit every time I see her (which is at most once a week for about 5-10 minutes).

No one's invited me to stray, and I wouldn't if I could. But when I reach the point that people keep approaching me like they did then, that they keep being drawn to me because of the positive attitude I project, then I'll know that I'm in really good shape.

a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.