This weekend went well, in fact from the outside on would think it went almost perfectly. We spent the Saturday together at the beach, packed a lunch, snacks, drinks, and got sunburned (both of us.) We went for a walk on another beach Sunday. All in all it was very nice.
Inside I am feeling different. I can't watch a romantic scene on TV without being very uncomfortable. I have to turn it off. I have the same problem listening to songs on the radio. Some songs are upsetting (invoke sadness, moderate anger.)
I think W is trying hard in her way. I owe it to her and us, not to rush. My deep down feelings on this PA have not changed. I don't know if they every will. There is no advantage to rushing into a decision, however.
I also think I owe it to myself to be responsive to my feelings and not to sell myself short. I have to be true to myself this time around as I think that I have not in the past.
Making more progress on the GAL front; I am forcing myself to be more outwardly friendly and talkative to people generally. I am forcing myself to exercise more often, even when I don't feel like it.
