It doesn't matter anymore.Do you really believe this? He's being a total ass,I agree here he hates me,No he doesn't. he's shown it and dammit I do deserve better.Maybe you do deserve better or maybe he is just trying to hurt you the way you hurt him. I know you apologized to him and such but now he has to do this for him. Would you want him back the way he is acting? Give him the time to come to grips with himself and everything. Hell with this marriage - he's right - it wasn't great to begin with.I don't believe this at all. No marriage is perfect.
I am working on me and our D and making US happy.I think this is what you need. Put everything to do with your H to the back of your head and don't think about things. It is hard in the beginning but gets easier. You still have good days and bad days but each day you waste making yourself sick over your situation is one less day to enjoy with you daughter. Keep your spirits up. You have one thing he doesn't.....more time with your daughter. Suck it up and move forward.