\:\) Thank you so much sweetie for your encouragement. I love to come on here and read a few words of encouragement!!!

Yes I am becoming so much stronger.. even this morning my H said to me" ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO?" and I answered " YEAH~" ( in a nice voice) and he said "OK~"
..... NOW THAT IS PROGRESS! I do not want to ever be that bossy wife you see at the store and when she speaks her H cringes... but I do enjoy when he is receptive to me telling him what to do now and again. He also explains things to me so much more ... where he used to be so buttoned lip about everything!!!! It was hard on our R cause there was not much to talk about and he never really let me in.
Yesterday he was a doll on the phone lots more ILY's.....

Today our son had a presentation at school.. he was Henry Ford and right before he presented I called hubby and asked if he was busy ... he said "NO~" SO HE LISTENED... I let him go afterward and called him later and he said he almost cried when he heard our son and to tell him he was so proud of him and that he did a great job. Last year he barely batted an eyelash at them ( our kids) and for years he was afraid to get close ,, so when we hung up.
I shed a few tears of JOY.... this is good, I feel so blessed.
He always said he was trying to help me get strong. I am well on my way to being the strong Woman I should have been all along and he is on his way to being the Man I knew he was under all that....
It is really amazing actually and it is hard to put into words. I/WE wasted so much time , so much time. I plan on making up for it. So many lost oppurtunities for me to smile and be just me. All we all want is just to be loved and it seems so simple just a few words but it really is hard to get to ... and once you are there you wonder what the hell you were doing before instead of this!
Greater than the gift of having him in my arms at nite is the gift of knowing ... I was left and I never gave up and kept going and now my children will benefit from seeing their parents love eachother so, so much! {and... my daughters from seeing one hell of a strong WOMAN!!!!!}
God bless....