So I have no idea why but since just before going to bed last night I have been rather nervous about tonight. I woke up probably 4 times during the night because of it. Today, I am jittery to no end and all because of going to dinner and a movie tonight with my wife. The only other time I ever recall being this nervous for this long was the day of our wedding!
Last night I kept dreaming about things in the future. Specifically interactions between my wife and I as we start to live in the same house, sleep in the same bed and rejoin our lives together. They were all good and positive dreams but they seemed to just heighten my nervousness.
Oh well, no matter I'll get past it. But I can't say how much I am looking forward to going out tonight. I just have to make sure I have all expectations, known and unknown in check.
One thing I am really unsure about is how to end the evening. I am driving so do I get out of the car and walk her to the door, wait for an invitation from her, tell her good night in the car? Man I need to turn off the brain today!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
