The problem is not being able to see her. What is her mood, how are her actions. Words don't mean crap right now, from either of us. But if I could see her, let's even say once a week, I could at least tell the direction she's going.
She says she's just moving forward with the D, but there is no action. When we met, I saw the love and connection with me in her eyes. Her lips say one thing, her eyes and body language say another.
It does set me up for a lot of speculation, but I'm working on getting rid of that. My thoughts are generally positive about her. I imagine new family pictures this summer with the 3 of us smiling and happy again. I think of us together and working as partners for a successful M/R. I think of us raising S4 in a manner that he has EVERY chance for success in his own life, including knowing that his dad love his mom, and ultimately how to treat a woman. I have to teach him that, and I've failed miserably so far. I relish the chance to make up for all that.
Anyway. No news is good news for now I guess.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
