Honey, first of all I am sorry you are getting your knickers in a twist about things you have no control over.
I know exactly how you feel and the anxiety you are feeling, the gag reflex, and the weight loss, it all sucks. I started taking Klonopin for it and it helped so much!!
I am going to sound like a hypocrite because I can't take my own advice...BUT do NOT let the monsters in your head come out to play.
The things we make up in our head are so much worse then the reality of the situation.
Be still, take a seat in the Refiners Fire and let yourself rest.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
