Bottom Line......

[~Sol]

I am exhausted. I wanted this M to improve, but there is no improvement.......therapy is needed, my sitch is that my W has so many issues that if left unresolved, we will get worse in our R....and eventually D anyway down the road.

I cannot emphasize how vital she needs therapy and medical attention for her physical and mental state....she has depression, unhappy in the M, and refuses to go to MC with me or on her own.

My gut tells me that my heart is too tired, too broken, and my hopes are just that...hopes. I see many other happily married couples, and I wonder what I have been missing. The only guaranteed love is for my daughter, and I also want to excel in my artistic career......but I need a stable R to do that in, or no R at all....

I am not abandoning the kids, but will instead be helping them by allowing them to grow up in a loving environment.....without being M to my W. I believe in staying M out of pure unconditional love...but it has to be both ways, right? Just staying M for the "kids sake" is emotional suicide, I think.