STBX just called and wanted to make sure that our plans for tonight are the same as we previously discussed. She then asked me about our hug the other night and then told me that is was the most ackward hug ever and that there is absolutely nothing there between the two of us. I told her I understood how she can feel that way since she checkedout of our relationship awhile ago. She then stated that she is having a hardtime with the fact that I am hanging out with our friends and that she will never be able to have any of those relationships again. She really had a hard time with the fact that her old girl friend was bringing our 5DD out and spending time with her.
She then asked if I told them anything. Yes I did, I told them that you filed for D. "Why, I told you that I wanted to keep this between the two of us, they do not need to know. They haven't supported me through this. They haven't told me that they love me no matter what." Well crazy STBX you lied to your friend and she has a hard time with that. That is why she doesn't call you anymore. How can I keep a D quiet? Not that I am telling the world but when people do not see you with me anymore they ask questions.
My W told me that she is trying to pickup the pieces from a failed M. I screwed up and laughed. I then told her no I am the one picking up the pieces from a shattered M. You choose this, not I. I have to deal with the fact that I am not going to be able to see my girls on a daily basis, not be able to tuck them in every night. These are the things that I need to pickup and deal with not you. You choose this, you have your new life planned. I need to deal with how to move forward not you.
I probably screwed up a bunch of times in that conversation, but who cares. What is she going to do D me? Everything is still all about her and her feelings. Well you destroyed two families I hope you can live with yourself. Selfishness, how do you get someone to see their selfishness?
