Here is one of the top 5 most important things I took away from my D.
When it was all over, the only things I regreted were the times I lost control of my emotions.
Your anger is justified. You should not ignore it, nor suppress it, but you must control and channel it in the right directions. You NEED help to do that.
Her Lies are a good thing, as ironic as that sounds. She is lying out of fear. Can your understand that? Can you make use of it? Im telling you, you can, if you allow help. Choc, I couldnt stand the MC we had, cause her efforts were rudimentary, half understood, and transparant IMO. I would have gladly paid NOP, to help keep me centered. Listen to him. You dont have to like it. You just have to do it.
The only thing you really need to worry about right now is you. Get rid of the Beemer. Break the lease, swap the lease, sell it, whatever it takes. Knocking off that outstanding balance, even if you eat a few grand will do wonders for your FICO. There are options and help. When my sitch happened, I had a long chat with myself, that no matter what happened, no matter what I felt, NOTHING was more important then my FICO. NOTHING. I had my reasons for my financial choices the whole R, I would stick my middle finger in imaginary OP gun barrel and dare them to pull it, before I changed them. It was really really hard. Everything is reallly really hard for you right now. Somewhere underneath there is a voice of reason talking to you and hearing what must be done, but hurts worse then being driven over with a asphalt smoother.
OT is still right. OM is not the problem. In fact were you not in the Sh!t, you would see how ridiculous her warped perception and attraction for him are. The sooner you can see the ridiculousness of it, the better for everyone.
The plan was, point right at the elephant, matter of factly call it and its big pile of Stinking Sh1t what they are, then hand her a shovel. Corri was right, you have too much opportunity to learn to many important parts of life, to sign the papers yet. Your not a man of steel yet, right now you are a man of hissing sputtering dross. Give your W the opportunity to hammer on you some more, till you are a flexible, sharp and tempered sword that can cut thru the heaviest armor with nary a scratch.
Focus on you. Examine every aspect of your life you want to improve.
Come here. Rage at her, HERE. yell at us... or me at least. Vent. HERE. and then be prepared for and greet her hammer blows, untill they merely make you ring like a tuning fork of your true inner self.
You have every right, and opportunity and ability to D. Noone will fault you. That choice and ability is not going anywhere. For the moment, keep it for you. A man is expected to keep his word. Choose them carefully. Use them rarely.
The Beatles With a Little Help From My Friends
A little help from my friends What would you think if I sang out of tune, Would you stand up and walk out on me. Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song, And I'll try not to sing out of key. I get by with a little help from my friends, I get high with a little help from my friends, Going to try with a little help from my friends. What do I do when my love is away. (Does it worry you to be alone) How do I feel by the end of the day (Are you sad because you're on your own) No I get by with a little help from my friends, Do you need anybody, I need somebody to love. Could it be anybody I want somebody to love. Would you believe in a love at first sight, Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time. What do you see when you turn out the light, I can't tell you, but I know it's mine. Oh I get by with a little help from my friends, Do you need anybody, I just need somebody to love, Could it be anybody, I want somebody to love. I get by with a little help from my friends, Yes I get by with a little help from my friends, With a little help from my friends.
Get a plan choco. Stick to the plan. The only way thru the storm is straight on. At the end of the day, float or founder, you are a man, and your choices are yours.
Vent. HERE. and then be prepared for and greet her hammer blows, untill they merely make you ring like a tuning fork of your true inner self. 