Thanks, JustD, for the support. I am trying to just step back tonight and regain patience. I swear, though, that I wonder if I have what it takes to wait.
And I wonder if I should wait or if I should tell H that we can plan for a D -- when should we let the WAS go? I know, it's more the sore heart talking than the mind, but today was so filled with unhappiness.
Do you know that H's C can't figure out why H ISN'T suicidal! How crappy is that? H&me know he isn't mainly b/c my sister died from a suicide attempt; you live through one loved one's suicide and you never want to do that to your family. Still...what if we are better apart? If H has that much pain to work through, what odds that we can find each other later?
Too many questions and too much uncertainty.
Still, look at what I'm gaining through this experience: more insights into my own psychi than I ever wanted to have, an incredibly effective weight loss sich, and finding friends on-line. (That sounds sarcastic but it isn't meant to be; I really do think these things are important gains out of all this.)
I have to go here b/c S1 needs a computer to finish one last paper. I wanted to say thanks, though, and no matter what happens, it's great to have you out there rooting.
