he doesn't Ian. I have let go and let God have this.
I would eat but I really can't. Every time I yawn, I have the urge to throw up. My stomach is in knots and I'm waiting on the Lex to work. AUGH! I just want a sign - something from God.
I ate more today than yesterday
I think I'm worn out still from the Relay too.
P.S. I think the going dark thing is harder on me than him. He seems to like it this way. He dropped D off tonight and couldn't even leave the truck - made her walk to the door with all of her stuff. That's ok too I guess...it just hurts.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
