I don't think your getting me UA, what I mean is accept that this is where your life is at today and you must persevere. You must eat, you must sleep, you must take care of yourself no atter what.
If he's MLC, then why are you stressing out so bad, you know that stuff takes time and patience. What about you my dear?
I am wondering why he has so much power over you even when he isn't earning it. Before I understood because y'all were around each other constantly and interacting, but now, detach baby.....