Still working on happiness

[ACJ]

Like Annie i did all the wrong things when I first found out my H was up to tricks again. Between finding out and leaving I had him at home for a week. It was a very weird week and in a way one in which we have never been so close as then! I wrote him a poem. I printed it on a nice piece of card intending that he take it with him when he left. My original plan had been to put it in his suitcase so that he would find it later. However, two nights before he left we had an arguement where he told me that he thought I had never loved him. I duly pulled out the poem and read it to him aloud putting all the feeling into the words that I had experienced when I wrote it. He sat and sobbed. He said it was the most beautiful thing that he had ever heard and that I should take up writing as a profession! It didn't stop him from leaving and he didn't take it with him! I still have it though. Here it is:

Goodbye My Love

Beneath the surface lies the torture of a troubled soul
Beneath the surface lie the pieces of a life no longer whole.
Where did the love and respect go
That we have shared together?
Where will our paths end up now
That you are gone forever?

Turmoil is not just a word it is a way of feeling,
Turmoil best describes a life that no longer has a meaning.
Others lives still go on
And seem like they don’t care.
Mine goes on unwillingly
It’s more than I can bear.

Darkness creeps in everywhere and fills my aching mind,
Darkness will become a way of life and to my soul will bind.
Goodbye my love, be happy
It’s all I want for you.
Goodbye my love, find peace now
But know my love stays true.