Hey. Amazing what happens when you move off center, isn't it?
I don't blame you one WHIT for your anger, etc., etc. And even if you want to be pissed, and be bound and determined to end it all... don't blame you. Do what you need to do.
I think the moves you are making regarding her finances are spot on. If anyone leaves, it SHOULD be her.
Find a good attorney. Get some really good advice, in terms of your finances and your kids. Get her out of the house, and go dark.
And then move very, very slowly. For six months. Get yourself to a very good shrink and work through that bitterness and anger. That's what you are feeling, you know.
But... do NOT sign on the dotted line... until that anger is gone. Seriously. If you do, you do... there is no saying that somewhere down the road the two of you couldn't get back together (and I hear you thinking... yeah RIGHT... whatEVER).
You are more in control of your M than you ever have been, probably in all the time you've been married. I know it doesn't FEEL that way, but you are.
I'm going to throw my hat into NOP's ring with the advice he is giving you... and I know you don't want to hear that... not right now. So pretned I didn't say it.
I'm also going to encourage you to maybe take OT's advice... I don't know... in a FEW weeks... wander on over to the DB/DR threads... take a look around... {shrug}. If not... cool.
Everything is one day at a time, right now, buddy. Work out. Get that anger flowing OUT of you...
But then, if you don't want to... and you feel like telling me to jump off a cliff... I can handle that, too. Please do. Vent. As Shrek says... "Better Out that In, is what I always say."
