I'm glad you started your own thread, and FWIW, I am "glad" that you heard these words from your XH.
Well, sort of, b/c I can also understand the frustration, of "too little too late" for something you sincerely wished for, and for all the pain caused along the way.
You stood strong, we know. I, too, have recently received news of "you did not really try, you did not really want to stay M"...
Ah well, only we know the truth.
Thank you for being here, and I hope that our words can support you as much as your words have soothed us!