Nice to see you back. One foot in front of the other, brother! Every day is new, each attempt is the first. You'll get there but it's moving slowly now so you don't notice but I'm sure that you can look back and see improvement. Some people set high expectations for "getting better" or "getting there" when in reality it's the trip that's important. Keep slogging along! I hope to hear more about how you're doing in the future. If nothing else you'll be able to vent like you did (and not to your parents!) with equals. We all float around here for one reason or another so feel free to just jump in. It's a good way to spend some time when you've got a little extra.