Still working on happiness

[princess_nic]

I'm in a rush right now, but I'll be back to reply to your posts. Here's some big news though:

The ow Remeet!

I just "re-met" PoorThing (my new name for H's gf/ow). D10 had forgotten some things here and came by to get them. I asked if ow was with them, and after some hesitation, she said yes.

Well, lucky for me, my hair was actually looking really good! I put on some powder and lipstick - to look good, but not like I'd made a big effort - and quickly threw on a cute, tight white tee and well-cut jeans.

I went out and knocked on the car window, and she opened the door. I said I wanted to meet her b/c we hadn't really had a chance to. She got out of the car, and I kept a big smile plastered on my face, asked her about her son, etc. H got out of the car, too, don't know why - didn't say anything. Probably to make sure I didn't tell her anything about him, lol!

So here is the upshot:

She is attractive, but not nearly as pretty as I originally thought. She is curvier than me, not as slim as I originally thought, w/ bigger boobs. This makes me feel a bit bad b/c H was always attracted to women like that, but it's not like there is anything I can do about being slender. And I am a B-cup, so I have something, lol! (Shut up, you big boobed ladies!)

She seemed friendly, but a little intimidated. I probably would be too, though, meeting the ex who had all those years w/ my bf. She didn't strike me as particularly scintillating or bright, and she has a smoker's voice.

So, she's attractive, she's got the kind of body I know H would like. I actually think I'm prettier, though. And I'm certainly of a higher quality. I mean, there's a lot you can tell on a first meeting, and she's not especially bright or interesting, certainly not someone I'd choose to spend my time with. Don't know why H is choosing to. What I do know is that any of his friends/family who know me will not be impressed!

And I'm not just being bitchy. Those of you who know me, know that I was well prepared to think she was fabulous. But she's not. It's liberating, but strangely disappointing - this is who he's choosing over me? I don't get it.

So that's it - gotta go and finish grading - grades due tomorrow!! Can you day "procrastination" lol!