Madonna/Whore Complex Part 4

[Heywyre]

Ok, so we had to go pick up my car in the shop and H had to rebook another appointment for next week. I know there is a new girl in there that he has talked about a few times, and seems quite impressed by, and she is the one that takes the appointments.

So, he says "I'm going to make the appointment, I guess I'll see you at home". Just the tone of his voice sounded like a brush off to me but I don't want to read anything into it and I am trying to regain trust, right? So, I just went home.

H came home about 15 minutes after me, so he wasn't gone long but when he came in he looked at me and immediately said "I went by to take a look at our jeep" and then proceeded to tell me he was looking at it to determine where to put the plates on it. Now, had he said nothing, I would have been ok. But, the jeep in still in the shop (roughly a 5 minute drive further from where the dealership where I got my car fixed is). This means he would have had to go there, get out and take a look at the jeep and drive home in 15 minutes? I am questioning this.

Now, having said that, I know there is not a heck of a lot he can do in 15 minutes, no matter where he is, that isn't the point. What I am thinking though is he didn't go to see the jeep at all but stayed to talk to this chick and if that is the case, why isn't he just telling me that. As it was, he said she was having problems finding the right code for the appointment. If that's the case, that reduces the time to "see the jeep" even more.

I know, I know, I am freaking out and being paranoid about 15 minutes - just let it go, right? It just bugs me that he can't tell me the truth

On another note. We had a nice barbequed dinner. We were sitting talking about how much he likes it here and then he started talking about the other city and OW (not exactly my favourite topic of conversation but I was ok with it because I know he needs to get it out of his system) But he reassured me he has no desire to go back there OR to see her - great.

He then mentioned again about having to find a picture of himself when he was younger. I figured this was a good time to bring up our "homework" assignment.

I asked him when we were going to schedule it since I start working again Monday and with him working nights, its going to be difficult. He said "don't look so serious, we'll figure it out. I will probably have at least one day off this week". I don't know what difference that makes because I don't get home until the later part of the afternoon, he's sleeping, gets up and has supper and then gets cleaned up and goes back to bed because he has to leave at 11:30 - so regardless of him having a day off, how's he going to do it?

I just said "ok" - but I know its going to be not only difficult, but I can just about guarantee he will avoid, avoid, avoid until it is too late and then use work, being tired, not getting enough sleep, whatever, as an excuse. I know, once again, this sounds negative but I am just so tired of hearing all his lame excuses for not doing things that are important. For someone that says he likes to "fix things" he sure is a procrastinator when it comes to fixing his M.

Ok, vent over!