Kim07 Separated 4 Years

[Kim07]

COG,,,OK,,,,I'm humbled! I will take all that you have said & suggested and put it to good use!

I'm trying to get out of this funk by helping a friend right now so the timing couldn't be better!

Please keep giving me info, 2x4's, etc.,,,you know me better than I think I know myself & I think that thats' part of the problem,,,been so wrapped up & worried about others' lives & decisions that i've been neglecting MY well being!!

I have notice one thing that has been happening the last few months,,,since I don't do it anymore,,,i've noticed "a calm" come over me by NOT driving by his house, work, etc. to check up on him or to figure out what hes' doing! After you've not done it for so long, theres' no need, no want anymore!!

I only notice it when its' late, late at night & i'm upset about something or feel insecure. But, I don't act upon it anymore, to him anyway,,,I just give you guys all my rantings if i'm low that day,(lol) & have no contact w/him at all! The less contact I have w/him, the more I feel "independent" of him! I go on a trip to FL on wed.,,,I planned it by myself,,,my 2 youngest sons will be going BUT no H!! That gives me more time w/my boys & my family & friends! I will be on my best behavior, no neg. talk, & just have FUN!! I've been anxiously awaiting for this trip for a long time,,my boys are sooo excited!

Sooo,,,"me lost soul" will focus on what advice has been given me & the trip & try to live 1 day at a time,,,positively!!

THANKS COG,,,I hope you have a wonderful weekend w/your family & kudos to you for keeping it together for sooo long,,you're an inspiration to us all!!

Love,
Kim