Why do these things happen

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Thank you.

I have been doing everything in my power to taking back the life that I have not had, I now realize that I was doing nothing more than letting my past, along with alcohol, keep me from growing and having a life.

My son may not remember this all as he grows up, but I can tell you that he notices the difference from a couple of months ago to today.He doesn't do it all the time, but once in awhile, he will ask me how many days, and then want to give me a "high five" then a big hug.

I also want to give my wife as much time as needed, but within reason, I just have no fricken clue what that period of time is, or how long I can handle the ups and downs. But I always keep thinking how long she has done it for me in that regards. I have thought long and hard if I need her in my life, and with all that is going on, I realize that I do not need anyone to move forward with this new part of my life, but I do want her to be a part of this new me in time, to be able to give and offer what I have not over these 10 years.

I will be here as long as I can, or should I say until I drive everyone here crazy to where they ban my IP from the site.

Are you by any chance a Inspirational Speaker
because you just seem to have a way with words. I read so many of your posts last nite that I my eyes are still bloodshot.