To much time on my hands................ It is getting hard, I know I am nowhere near perfect. But I am getting damn tired of when I need someone there for me, they are not around, or impossible to talk with "not always thier fault" My parents during my youth, I wish I had gone to them at the time, way to late now. My 1st W, when she bailed I was pretty much in a strange town and lost with no one to lean on. I am starting to think I was the idiot for alway being available to everyone. Now with this situation, all the people I can talk to are "our" friends and I do not want to go to them for fear of it hurting friendships. The rest are her family, and I get the impression from them that whatever happens, happens. They all know what has gone on, what is going on, and how I am coping with the drinking, the abuse and all. Does anyone stand up. Nope. I am the bad one here in the relationship. I really don't want them to be involved per say, but someone I think would say "whoa" lady, look what the heck he has just started to come to grips with. But no, kick him in the nuts to make sure he stays down.
Ok I have no clue why I am rambling, but safer here than holding it in my head at the moment.
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M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
