Thanks for your input Jazz. I agree with you completely, but I have friends and family that tell me not to and then I have others telling me to go out and date. They say "it will make him think" or the best way to get a guy to come around is for someone else to be interested in you (kind of like kids not wanting anyone else playing with their toys).
After what happened today, I feel like why not..I am not sure I have any more fight left in me to try to save my M. My heart is in a billion pieces. I don't want to get a D but I don't know that I can keep fighting for something that maybe is too far gone. This is my 2nd M and I waited for almost 2 years for my first H and that almost killed me. I know I can't do that again plus every day this goes on, every time he does something more to hurt me, that makes me feel like it is going to be that much harder to put this back together. I married this man because I thought he would NEVER do this to me. How can I have faith and trust in him after all of this.
