Thanks, Hill. I'm much better off here than if I stayed at home waiting for the sand to run out of the hourglass on our "1 year separation". I have always wanted to be here, right in the middle of this whole thing. I can say I made history, not just read about it in a book. It will give me a tremendous tranquility on so many levels.
Politicians will lose this thing, just like in Vietnam (NOT the warriors!) because they don't have the stomach to fight wars the way we used to.
It is easier here than getting my nose rubbed in it daily. It's really hers to throw away. I refuse to have my kids have a hole in there hearts that will never heal because I decided to leave. That won't happen. She will have to do it all if she wants it. That is, however, over a year away.
Time for both of us to reflect. There are some days that I don't know if I've detached or have just given up. I am open to reconciliation, so it may be detachment. I don't call her, email her or make contactin any way. If she happens to answer when I call for the kids, I talk for about 30 seconds with her and immediately ask for S or D.
I have a three day pass before we go to Iraq. I'm going to Myrtle Beach with another single officer for 3 days. I can't say goodbye to my kids again. I wasn't right for about 3 or 4 days after I saw them last.
I even call D on her cell instead. I do, however have to have a strategy so I don't go dark forever, and comee home to someone I have not corresponded with in over 2 years.
Thoughts? By the way: Where has COG been? He used to respond to me almost hourly!!!!!1
