I believe in one true love. She has always been the sweet, warm, soft center of my universe. Just along with way I forgot to tell her, show her, and treat her that way.
I hear that. I know my W is my one true love. I've looked at this from the outside, I've closed off my inside feelings and I've evaluated the situation from a completely non-emtional perspective and decided, I REALLY love her! I too forgot to SHOW her how much over the last 3 years. Man that is a long time to treat ANYONE poorly, especially your wife. I am truly GRATEFUL for my wife and I VALUE her as a human being, a wife, a mother, a lover, a friend, and a PARTNER (the biggie that we were missing). That's what I'm trying to show her - that I'm her partner, not her dependent.
Has your W filed for D? That's where I'm stuck, my wife did AND filed a protective order. So I can't even talk to her! It's actually been good, and I'm learning patience, but it's a challenge!
I guess the big thing we have to remember is this is not going to fix itself overnight. It's going to be a LONG process. Shoot, mine has already gone on longer than I ever expected. With the D filed, I thought we were done a month ago. Not sure what she's waiting for, but I'm grateful for the time.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
