How’ve you been? Thanks for stopping by. How are things with you?? Thanks, OT. I’ve been doing good.
Memorial Day weekend I ended up camping with the kids & SO for most of the weekend. It was real nice. We went on Saturday….Sunday he had a work thing to do for a couple of hours and took D8 with him; me & the other 2 kids went back to his mothers and took a rest for the afternoon; then went back around 4 PM until Monday around the same time. It was very nice. Very relaxing. One or two snafu’s, but nothing major.
Wednesday afternoon I went over to his place. We hung out; he took me out to eat, came back; watched some of a movie. Curious thing he said, both over the weekend and on Wednesday about him & OW being over. He said she went through his phone and found text’s from/to me; checked his voice mail and must have found stuff she didn’t like. I didn’t really make any comments about it. More that I felt a sense of dread that the pendulum will now swing in the other direction. I.E. - his cycles. OW has ended things, so now he’ll swing back that way. That’s the way it’s historically been. When I have nothing to do with him - he pursues me; when she ends things, he pursues her. He did say Saturday night when we were camping "It's always you, NM. I'll always come back to you." and he "counts on me to 'understand' him". Again, curious statements not initiated by me. ? Another thing I've noticed is he's now always kissing me hello & goodbye - even in front of others, on the lips. This is something that had drifted away over the years between us. Now, he makes a definitive point to do it.
So, I don’t know what to do. I’ve been maintaining a steady keel. Don’t know what to do to break out of or break THE cycle. OT, suggestions? I know you’re good at this.
This weekend, he has talked about coming up & camping again. He is supposed to work Saturday, but said he was trying to get out of it. That’s another thing I’ve noticed - he keeps ditching his bar gigs. Either go for an hour to start it then leave; or completely give it to one of his guys and not go at all.
So, that’s about all. I guess right now, my main quandary is to figure out what, if anything, to do regarding this latest cycle pattern. What I could or should do differently.
