Alright I have been up for 24+ hours now and am starting my day at work. This is going to be a rough day.
The reason that I did not get any sleep is that I could not fall asleep and then my W called on her way home from work.
She called to appologize and tell me all her wrongs throughout our M. It was genuine and heart felt. She was hoping this conversation would give her some closure to us. When she told me that she was at such peace when it is just her and our girls with no connection to me... I said that is because that is when it is easiest for you to ignore the huge mistake that you are making by leaving me. She did not like that comment very much. She told me that she is sick of people telling her what to do and that she is wrong for leaving me. She also said that until everyone has walked in her shoes they have no right to judge or tell her what to do.
We talked for sometime. She still has nothing to give to me and needs to start moving on. She did go see another lawyer and it appears that this is the guy that she is going to go with. He is currently typing up the paper work to get a divorce started. She plans on serving me the papers herself instead of a stranger giving them to me in a public place. She has thought most of her new life through. She plans on buying a townhome about 5 miles from our current home. With her being a nurse she has extremly flexible hours, which will make it a lot harder for me to get primary custody. She basically is only going to work on the days that I have our kids. This eguals 5 shifts every 2 weeks and they would be 12hr shifts. With all that she would get from our D she can basically pay for her townhouse and not have a mortgage payment. She can easily provide for herself and our girls with child support. I don't think it matters how good my lawyer is, I do not think that I stand much of a chance. Her lawyer asked my W if she wanted my new car.WTH... She did tell him no and that I deserve it. Not to sure why she thinks that I deserve my car but this is not the first time she has said this. She also said that she probably won't touch my 401K, her lawyer told her she was crazy but that is her decision.
She again is worried what I am going to be telling people and she wants me to make sure that I take my share of the blame for our failed M. I did not directly answer this. But if people ask I will probably tell them that we had maritel problems and that my W did not want to work through them. She felt it was easier to leave.
So it looks like D is on the horizon for me. I really was hoping that it did not come to this. I really do not know what I can do anymore. My W feels if she stays in our M that it will only a shell of a M for our girls. I disagree but I cannot change her mind.
I am kind of in a fog myself rightnow and as I remember details of the conversation I will post them.
