IWMIW: Thanks. If you're not hearing the fat lady, maybe your hearing aids need a tune-up. So far as I can tell, she's finished warming up, has exited her dressing room, and is on her way to the stage. At the current pace, the D should be final about a year after the bomb. Wouldn't it be ironic if our D was final the same day we got married?
As I said before, I don't know that we have the same goals in life anymore and while I grieve for the loss of our relationship, I can't really say, intellectually, that we can be together successfully. From what she says, I believe she is searching for happiness in doing or possessing certain things. I believe that kind of search is unending and fruitless because happiness is a choice...something that comes from inside...not something you do or get. It's also a journey I'm unwilling to take so if she is bound and determined to pursue it, it will have to be alone.
All: I figured I'd let myself feel bad last night and be better today. And for the most part, I am. But shaking the blues is proving much more difficult this time...I don't know why.
It's a full moon tonight and my STBXW and I used to go outside, hold each other, and stare at it...just like we did on our honeymoon (which also happened to be under a full moon). Looking at it now just brings the loss into such stark relief.
