Okay, so I didn't have a great time tonight. I mean really didn't. I felt so single... so unwanted... LOL!!

We went to "Music on Main". I would say it seemed like there were only couples, but that's not true. There were a lot, but then there were a lot of men, too. None of them compare to DH, ya know?

13yoDS went to a movie and we thought it got out at 9:40, so I called DH to tell him if he wanted to stay for cake, it would be late. Well, we miscalculated. The movie didn't get out until 10:40!! I told him he could cut the cake and he and the other boys could eat it if they wanted. 13yoDS wasn't upset about that. When we got home, DH was here. He hadn't left. We lit the candles, sang happy birthday and had cake. DH said he hated to eat and run, but... I apologized several times about the mix up and he told me to quit apologizing. Then he took me by the waist, pulled me to him and kissed me (no tongues or anything... lol... but a nice soft kiss). *swoon* Why does he do that? The funny thing, I was pissed off when I got home. I forget why now... I think because it's like he holds all the cards. Like I'm waiting on him to find out how I'm gonna spend the rest of my life. How unfair is that???!!! I keep thinking that me filing for D is the only answer and then I tell myself how stupid I am because there's no way I would even sign papers if he filed... lol...

So I have plans next week to do the free line dancing lessons on Wednesday night, Music on Main on Thursday night and a girl's party on Friday night (not a toy party ). I guess that's GAL. Maybe once I start to meet other people it will be more fun. I felt like a 3rd wheel tonight cuz my friend knew tons of people and I didn't.

I will admit that I knew he would be here, so I took all Michelle's books with me. I deleted all these links from my history. I did leave my journal. I wonder what I wrote last and if he read it?

Ooooh!! And listen to this. My GF? Her daughter lives in the same complex as DH (that's how he found the studio). She lives in a studio, too, right across the parking lot. Anyway, so GF says "he must have wanted to get away bad to live there" \:o Yeah. Thanks for that. It really is tiny!! See, I was looking at like he's trying to do his best by me and buying no luxury for himself. I think I like my take on it better. ;\)

Okay, I got 2 books at the library today and need to finish the one I have so I can start those. \:\) I'm gonna go read and go to bed.

Have a good night.