Still riding the rollercoaster. We had a mini fight about something fairly insignificant, I was upset, but agreed to work harder on the problem, it ended up with H giving me a kiss and saying we will work this out.
I have been thinking about going off my antidepressants, but I realized yesterday that I was really irritable so that makes me think I need to go back on them, I had been off for nearly a week. Restarted today, I think I just need a little smoothing over for a while longer, and that is okay, I am not on a huge dose and not having side effects so what is the harm.
H has been busy this week, we both have really, I am feeling like we need to have a R conversation, but I am not going to bring it up, I think that is the wise course in this case. I am still sad about the lack of intimacy and "team" feeling going on. We are united on several things but there isn't that buddy buddy you lean on me I'll lean on you kind of thing. I guess it just takes time, and lots and lots of time. sigh.
Still feeling alone in the jungle so to speak. Looking forward to my counseling session next week just to have someone give me some feedback.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
