Need Veteran Piecer's Advice - desperately!!!

[Heartbroken]

Well another swell ride UP on this damn rollercoaster.

H's best friend talked to him today and got H to see maybe we should try one (?) session at MC - this is good. I will take this positive even if it just helps me to understand why he so wants out. I told H that he knows I am willing to go to a MC but he has to decide - I do not want to be accused of controling him down this path. H feels we need to slow down - that he needs to slow down and relax a little. I said that would be good b/c I was so stressing over a mortgage even w/alimony it would be so tight.

I am going to truly detach and prep myself for the D unknowns. You will not believe the GAL'ing I am going to do and focus on ME AND THE KIDS. I am done persuing and chasing and crying. This is my time and he can see what a true separation feels like.

I either will get a chance to get my best friend back or the peace I so desire! I think I will finally sleep tonight!

Please let me know the best things to do with detaching - any help would be appreciated!!

THanks!

HB