Today's journal We both went to our respective C sessions yesterday. It sounds like W's was productive. Mine was good, but we have a lot of ground to cover. I love W dearly, but am still 70/30 for D in my mind. I will still dedicate whatever time is necessary to allow C to take it's course. Her C stated should we get to a place where we are willing to do joint C, she would locate us another C to work with us as a couple. That sounds logical, and I am okay with that. Through C I decided that pursuing a friendship with a person of the opposite sex however platonic my intentions might be, could be interpreted as retaliatory by W, so I will not do this.
On the GAL front, I started back swim training (x-competitive swimmer) with my club. It's at a fantastic outdoor pool, sunny weather usually, so I really look forward to this. I have been doing a little fitness/weights regimen at work at the gym on our site. I am starting to notice some more muscle definition after a couple weeks, so that is very encouraging. I also have been going jogging sometimes with W.
I was hoping to hook up with a friend I have not socialized with in 20 years, this weekend at a social function we were invited to. This isn't going to happen, as W does not want to go. She said I could go, but it's kind of a girly thing, so I would not enjoy being there alone.
I am functioning a little better at work. I was thinking of initiating a substantial/ambitious personal project (fundraising for a children's charity), which I have been planning for 3 years, but am worried with our marital situation it will cause friction and/or take away valuable time, should I need it.
Overall there are a lot of positives.
IS 49 W 47 S 21 D 19 S 16 M 24y Together 31y EA Mar04-May 06 PA Feb06-Jun06 EA May07 Bomb Dec 28 07
Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage which we did not take, towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden. T. S. Eliot
