I'm with you entirely emotionally. In ONE HOUR"S TIME, I can literally have the following thoughts:
1) why am I doing this? he doesn't deserve it. Nothing has changed.
2) this move will be good for my legal career at the very least
3) this move will END my creative pursuits/career
4) this move will help d9 with her R with h, and she loves h anyhow, needs him in her life
5) WHY am I uprooting d9 away from her school, friends, home and neighborhood when she is happy here?
6) I could just file for a DIV now as I am already used to the idea of being single and i'm increasingly OK with being without h.
7) Who is H?
8) what's 2 years compared to a 26 yr M? Besides, h is making some baby steps, which are bigger for him than for me, but still exist
9) I can always leave
10) I do love him
11) I feel uncomfortable saying ILY, b/c I no longer know if I really do....
the list goes on, but I am off to get work done....I think you get the point.
jdk, how's THAT for clarity? j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
