Even though our sitches are not exactly the same, there are many parallels right now...
Who are these psychic DJ's that are playing certain songs right when we tune in? First thing, Monday morning (which was the day the OM was arriving to stay with my W) I get in the car to head to the gym at 6:45 a.m. and a college station that does not play many Beatles songs to begin with, chooses to play which song???:
...You better run for your life if you can, little girl Hide your head in the sand little girl Catch you with another man That's the end ah little girl
Let this be a sermon I mean everything I've said Baby, I'm determined And I'd rather see you dead...
I do not agree with the violent suggestions of wishing to see my W dead, but I had not heard this song in a long time, and of course I heard it so very differently than in all the years past.
When our lives are in the midst of relationship turmoil and emotional swings, the pop songs we've been hearing for so many years as only background music, suddenly come to life and the lyrics speak to sympathetic vibrations of what the original writers must have been trying to convey, based on their life experiences from years prior to that.
I cannot believe how much pop music is written about relationships coming alive or falling apart. And for me, either genre hurts right now, because the relationship coming to life is the W & OM, and the relationship falling apart is myself & W.
Of course, I am hoping that the genres will do a crossover, and in the future, I can sing along with Chicago's "Alive Again":
...Yesterday I would not have believed That tomorrow the sun would shine Then one day you came into my life I am alive again I am alive again When you gave your love to me you changed my life Dreams that once seemed hopeless come with ease Thank you girl for being just the way you are I would never try to change you All I live for is to love you I'm feeling alive again I'm feeling alive again...
For now, Choc, keep the positive songs in rotation in your mind's play list, and whistle the optimistic ones when you can.
LG
Me 46 WAW 45 M 21 yrs
WAW: "I need to be alone" 12/06 W moves out 3/07 Mediation finalized 08/08
