You're gonna think I'm full of it, but 7yo DS was born 6+ weeks early with heart problems. Thank goodness he didn't have to have surgery, but it was a very stressful time. They (C) thinks that's when my depression started... that it started out as PPD.

DS is doing really well. We've been through this 3 other times, only those times, they glued his face together. ;\) They say scars add character... this boy is gonna have soooo much character!! \:D 13yo's b-day is tomorrow. He wants to go hang with friends at the mall tomorrow afternoon/evening, so we're gonna do lunch with DH.

DH was helpful in that he was there, but I really could have used some support, too, ya know? Maybe not "support" but a hug or a hand squeeze, just something, ya know? I was disappointed that he wasn't more caring towards me. I guess that's selfish.

I will not bring up date night again. He blew me off this past weekend and has already made plans with 16yoDS for Friday night, BUT I'm going out with a girlfriend tomorrow night. Yeah me!! Anyway, I'm done making the plans. I'll try not to be disappointed.

When I start to stress, I tell myself to give it to God and that this must be his will right now.

Since 7yo cried cuz I said he couldn't go to the park, I took him. I actually talked both the other boys into going, too. 16yo with his GF and 13yo with a neighbor friend. We played hide and seek in the 90 degree weather for about an hour.

Next week, the theater has $1 movies for the kids, so we'll start doing that (until I find a job... lol). It's nice to be busy with the kids and get out this much. \:\)

I hope you had a decent night and have a good day tomorrow!!! Sleep well.