It's ironic that seemingly no matter how good your progress is in relation to moving towards reconciling, it's still a long way short of where you would like to be. That's the part that hurts.
Tam - you and he have made great progress. He's is home more than he is away - that's a huge improvement. You haven't had a freakout, hysterical episode for weeks and weeks. He is feeling safe with you and chosing you the majority of the time. That's sucess in this game.
It's not that long ago that he said he didn't want to be married - and now he is demonstrating that he's not sure what he wants. I know how frustrating it must be - but I sincerely admire your commitment and fortitude to getting this right.
Your challenge now is to put last night aside and maintain your optimistic flirtatious personality on the trip away. You can do that. You can do it because that is the strategy to get you closer to what you want - a reconciled marriage.
Tam - sometimes it is darkest before the dawn.
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
