What if I push us back and then it all starts again? What if I don't like his answer and go ballistic? I go back and forth from feeling like I will be back home by August for sure, to wondering if we will ever have our close R again. It feels so close but I am scared to death! Way back in the beginning I thought that once I was at this point it would be easier but it isn't. Every forward step just makes me worry about backsliding even more.
I am still staying pretty positive but I break down whenever I think about having this conversation with H. When my roommate asked me about renewing the lease, I cried right there over my grocery bags. She apologized and we chatted about what was going on with H and I but I let her know that I am not renewing either way.
Any advice from you guys on how to approach this would be wonderful! I just feel really lost because I have spent months being nonconfrontational and easy going. It is like, once I thought the roller coaster was getting less dramatic...I hit a corkscrew and get all confused. H knows when my lease is up, he is the one that found the short term sublease on craigslist, but I want to say something so badly...PLEASE HELP!!!
